The LORD said to Gideon, “The people with you are too many for me to give the Midianites into your their hand, lest Israel boast over the saying, ‘My own hand has saved me.’” — 7:2, ESV
This is so opposite my mentality. I always want surplus and extra. I always want to know that I have enough for the job at hand so that I have a better chance of success. And going to battle? I always feel the more the better, especially when “the Midianites and the Amalekites and all of the people of the East lay along the valley like locusts in abundance” (7:12).
But to God, over 30,000 was too many for him to work. TOO MANY for him.
So maybe this is why I so often fail to see God in the midst of my days because I’m so busy replacing him with *abundance* to succeed that he says, “That’s too many other things for me to be involved. I’ll wait.” I don’t want him to wait on me. I want him to lead and guide me into everything that he calls me to and asks of me. I want to be completely fine with the fact that his ways and thoughts are not like mine at all (Isaiah 55:8-9). I want to trust him so much that worry really has no hold on me.z
I don’t want anything else in my life to take your credit and receive your glory and honor. I don’t want to set up my life so that it all makes sense to me, and so that success for the task at hand is possible because of what I store up. Take my life and all that I am. Call me to things that are beyond me, and beyond any surplus that I could store or save up, and let me watch you do what you do as you move us forward.